just as stupid as usual...

yesterday night after finish reading chemistry i on9 for a while
just to see if there is anything i can do
but then once i on9 she ask me whether i finish my newspapaer cutting anot
actually i din think of doing it be4... haha
but then she ask me to help her print the common illness in malaysia
i remember that miss tania said that she want it from the newspaper and not print
so i just say that i have extra from my work...
then i ask her whether she want anot
(ps: actually i have find also)
she answer that she wants it for her and arieal so i just promise to bring it to her the next day
soon after that i take out the whole bunch of newspaper in this week and start to find "the common illness in malaysia" for her
wah... it's not as easy as i thought i would be
after finding all the newspaper in this week i could only found around 8 "illness"
and it's already 11 something...
but i still short of 12!!!
so i just go out to the store room and take all the newspaper in and continue my work, searching for the "common illness"
at around 12.30 i finally found about 17 "illness"
and i remember that i have brought some newspaper about "illness" to skul
so i decide to slp and continue my work tomolo...
and that' how my thursday night ends...

today i reach skul quite early
when i reach skul she was sleeping there at mei sien place and the door was opened wide
so i just walk there and close the door so she wont get a cold ^.^
when she wake up i just gave the newspaper cutting to her and went to the toilet...
when coming back to the class she purposely block my way loh
then i just spray water to her as my hand was still wet.... lolz....
(sry loh... just joking wif u... but i noe that it was stupid...)

for the following lesson saw her studying chemis and look blur blur loh
i just walk there and ask her whether she need my halp anot but she say that she can cope with it and tell me that she isn't that blur loh
maybe she feels that i think she is weak in many subject gua
so she speak so.....

haiz... i'm trying not to disturb her anymore...
coz i noe that the one she cares is not me
and the present of me will only bring pressure to them
i hope that she will just be happy with him
and i noe she will....
if not i wouldn't have let you be with her...

please treat her well...
treat her with care as you noe that she is so careless
she always hurt herself during outdoor activities so take care of her well loh
she sometimes forget to drink water in skul de loh
so please remind her to drink more water bah
she is weaker than other people de so protect her with all your strength loh
i duno y am i lecturing over here...
just....
take care of her well
make her happy and i will be happy
i noe that i'm silly talking about these kind things over here
but at the end i hope that both of you can live together happily

she really cares about you so dun do something silly
she is not a toy so please dun say give up then give up
please take good care of her...
i just not the person she want but you are
so dun hurt her or else you will noe what i will do then
gambateh bah for her and for yourself

good nite then... gud nite...

I'm wrong

i'm wrong...
who she nid aint me but you i think
we both noe that it's impossible for me and her
but i'm just the one who keep lying to myself that i can

sry... for all the problem i've brought to your life
sry... for making u feeling sad or depressed since last year
sry... for making u lose a fren that could maybe be your boyfren
sry... for keep disturbing u
sry... for making u cries
sry... for making u to become someone who is not the usual "child of hapiness"
sry... i'm really sorry

i'm the one that should have give up
sry... that i fall too deep for u
sry...

加油吧！

“喜欢一个人不一定要拥有她，看到她幸福快乐我已经心满意足了”
不知道到这句话是谁对我说的。。。
说是容易，但又有谁是真正能做到的呢？？？
我做不到。。。。
我唯一知道的是喜欢一个人如果不努力去争取，
那我一定会后悔。。。
所以我不会放弃它的。。。
我会一直努力打动她的心。。。

但我希望你也不要放弃，
因为我没有资格叫你放弃你喜欢的人。。。
我们一起努力吧，
虽然你将会是我的轻敌，
但我还是希望这不会破坏我们的友情

不要轻易放弃自己喜欢的人，

不然我会看不起你哦！！

一起加油吧。。。

should i or shouldn't i...

spend the whole day in skul in a sad mood...
din even talk to her the whole day...
today malay period i saw her facing problem wif copyign what teacher write
so i decide to finish my web A faster and borrow her
duno y i dun dare to talk to her...
so i told mei sien to take it to her
but she din see it... not even look at it...
after that comes the add math period
the teacher ask us to finish 10 question of past year
so i think that maybe i could finish it faster and borrow her
coz i noe that she is sure to have problem wif it
but it's the same... she pass it bac to me...
feel kinda sad that time... but what to do...
just lying there to slp coz i dun wana see smtg i dun wana see

saw someone blog... and feel sad after that...
duno what to comment... he is aftering her also
maybe i should do better myself and win her over
but is it possible?? the answer is NO...
he's getting better and better wif her
while me... there's a barrier between she and me
now she dun tell me things about her anymore
not telling me how she feel anymore...
and i'm having difficulties just to chat wif her...
duno what to do... feeling to cry now...

just hope that she will be happy
she is sure a careless girl...
everyday here hurt there hurt...
take care lah and everyday on9 till so late
then at skul also no energy to study edi loh
but maybe that the girl i like...
hope u will feel happy lah... gambateh o
i think of it already... i WONT give up de
i'll fight till the end...
wish me luck...

HOPING FOR LOVE

haiz... this few days was a hard days for me....
i have add math exam today at the fifth period...
once i reach skul i just ask ppl for add math book to revise what i have studied
but then i noe that i read the wrong chapter... heng!!!
what to do?? just can study again be4 the exam lolzz..

duno y i just cant stop thinking of her...
really feel like asking her whether she know how to do anot...
but i dun dare to go near her...
maybe i just to coward to do so
haiz... really feeling depress with myself....
now she didn't write on her blog anymore...
she had opened a new one
maybe it's becoz she dun wana let me see how she feels now
or maybe there's smtg i cant see...

i really duno what can i do to make her happy
as now i dun even dare to go near her and chat
mostly becoz there are always many people around her
and i duno what to say to her...
just like today as she sit there alone
i just go and sit beside her thinking maybe there's smtg i can chat wif her...
i was so nervous that i keep spinning mei sien ruler and keep make it falls to the ground...
lolz... really duno what am i doing actually
i really duno what can i say anymore so i just got up and go away
sometimes i feel that i still stand a chance but then the other day she kills it

hiaz... i saw her dairy... oni a little...
it's ah woo who let me see...
and it's about the guy she likes...
but she din mention about his name, just a "he"
she seems to be feeling depress too
just like me feeling depress for her, she feels depress for another people
arrh!!! maybe i should just give up...
as there are many people who are infront of me trying to get her love
i just a noob... looking her from far far away...
she is like the moon to me
it's impossible for me to get the moon
as i'm not qualified and not good enough...
haiz... maybe i should just slp and leave her alone
not to disturb her anymore
maybe that will make her feel better
as i feel that someone known as "brother" is aiming for her too
maybe it's just my thought but... duno lah
just my feeling... am i stupid or perhaps i'm just too sturbon...
everytime i say i wana give up she will do smtg that makes me feel that maybe i should continue...

arrh!!!! i'm really going crazy!!!!!
but one thing i noe
and that is i LOVE her so much
so much that i would do anything.....
ANYTHING!!! just to make her happy
but just hope that i have the chance to do so...
or maybe i should just GIVE UP on her...


I'M A NOOB IN LOVE CIRCLE.... WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO REALLY CARES ABOUT ME... CARES ABOUT WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM.... PLS... DUN LET ME WAIT TOO LONG FOR YOU TO ARRIVE.... AS I"M TIRED, REALLY TIRED OF LIVING LIKE THIS... SOULESS, THOUGHTLESS, LOVELESS

HOPING FOR LOVE....