Sick

I'm sick for the following 3 days...
cough, flu and fever all together...
haiz... the second day after coming back from chuat house
most of the ppl who went there fallen sick
maybe it's because we slp too late on saturday
on saturday night, the first night i spend time in a cc
Infinity or better known as WCG
we play dota there till about 2 am before we went back to chuat house...
really feeling kind of weird
then on sunday after going back to my house i just sleep until night
then the next day i fall sick
haizzz.... quite tired now coz just finish exam today
moral exam... sienzz
i think i will just stop here
nite....^^

HaPpY ^.^

today's kick off just the same as usual
reach skul at about 7am then just chat with my frens
all of us have decided to go to chuat house on saturday
coz all of us wana go wcg to play dota... haha
although i have said that i have already quite dota
but i think sometimes just a dota game will be fine
haha...

duno why... hui wen seems to be a bit weird
be4 i think that she is a gud gal but now i change my mind on her
haha... she likes to "zhat" me all the time
talking to her really makes me feels crazy sometimes....
by the ways she is still so cute with the way she is

another one... a gal with chromosomes number 44+XO
really duno how to desceibe her... maybe somedays when u get to noe her
u will feel as if duno wana cry or laugh when u are talking to her
she like talking nonsence...
she thinks of somethings ppl wont have thought of...
maybe that's what her speciallities... haha
her conversation with wen jun really looks like a comedy
the way they talk, the way they act....
really so "zadao"...

hmm... today chuat, bird and seik you din come to skul
all three of them are going for the car license exam today
so it was quite a dull day as our claz is just not the usual without them
be4 skul's end i heard that chuat have fail his car license test
pity chuat... as he is the oni one to fail his car test that day
seik you and bird pass the test comfortably...

today's last period is the sport period
chuat din bring the soccer today so we can't play soccer
as there are oni volley balls so i decide to use it as soccer
but then i get scolded by the sport teachers
haha but still feels fun when playing soccer
till now i still can't forget how we lost the soccer match
really a big blow for me... losing the match in the final minute
haiz... i guess i just have to live on with it

but today wasn't a sad day for me...
at the sport period i got the chance to play volleyball with her...
haha... really feel so happy at that time
mei shean tell me that she cried loudy when i catch the ball when
her "best" friend kick the ball towards me... haha
duno what to respond at that time but really feels happy that time

today after tuition at 10pm
i quickly on9 to see if she got on9
but she din... lolz... really feel like chatting to her loh...
but she din on9 also gud de
at least maybe she is resting gua...
these few days she seems to be sick...
everyday see her headace, legace, handace and many many more ar
perhaps it's becoz she din get enough of slp loh...
today she say that she have ulcer loh... not just an ordinary ulcer
but a 4x ulcersssssss....
she say that she accidently bite herself
and she says that now it turns out to be like a map...
haiz...
that who she is... always so careless...
could u imagine an ulcer which look like a map... =.=
haha... she's quite funny then...
but when watching her in pain makes me feel sad too...
hope that she will recover soon loh... gud nite shean...
slp tight all my frens... ^.^

We have lost it...

today at skul i was quite nervous about the soccer match
i have to hide it from others coz i cant be panik
finally it was 3.10pm and the skul end
we pass the ball around the class then we went to the canteen for smtg to eat
at that time she sms jenny to wish us luck
i was quite down that time
i'm wondering why she sms jenny instead of me...
maybe it's becoz she really doesn't have any feel towards me
but then we went to the soccer field waiting for our match to come

our match starts at 3.45pm so we make a circle to play passing
soon its our turn to play the game
i keep looking for No.9 but cant find it so i decided to take No.7
the number i love most but i think i just din live up the expectation

when the match started
i was quite uncomfortable with the ball
we tried to take first blood (the first to score)
and a few minute later we got what we wanted
their defence make a mistake and seik you grab that chance to take first blood for us
we were totally crazy at the moment
we thought we could go on and win the match
but then not long after the first goal
they score an equaliser to make it 1-1
that score continue until half time

at the start of second half we make a mistake
letting the opponent to hav too many chances oni for our goalkeeper to deny them the lead
i seldom get the ball and i cant cope with their playing style
it was hard for me to control the ball and i din even get a chance to shoot the ball
i was quite quiet at the ball for the whole match as i was not in form
i was tired but i was determined to win the ball from the opponent
at the last 2 minute i cross a ball from the left side into the penalty box looking for seik you
and seik you jump at full length to head the ball in
Goal!!! 1 minute left and we were 2-1 ahead!!!
but then the nightmare started
as the ball started from kick off
jun qing dribble past seik you and jing hong
when jing hong turn he knock jenny and both of them falls
leaving a one on one situation between wen jun(GK) and jun qing
and jun qing make no mistake to score the goal

the goal lead us to the penalty
i was quite nervous becoz i always lose on penalties
i have penalty pheobia!!!
their striker make no mistake by scoring the first penalty for them
but i still step on to take the first penalty
pang!! my shot hit the upper post and went out
i wan devastated!! at that moment tears coming flowing from my eyes
i was disappointed... i was lost... and i feel guilty
jun qing come on and score the second penalty for them
and now it's seik you turn to take the penalty
he shoot the ball to the left and the keeper save it
Bi!! Bi!! there goes the whistle
and that the end of our soccer competition journey
we lose it again... and it's my fault

i din play well the whole match
i seldom run... i seldom defend...
i just stand at the midfield waiting for the ball to come
i mess up the whole team...
tears come flowing from my eyes...
that's the first time i cry for a soccer competition
i really love soccer so much and i always wanted to win a soccer competition
but in my last yeat in Chong Hwa
i blow the chance away...
i"m the loser in the end
i cry quietly at the toilet as i cant believe that i have lost the match

that day i went home
after bathing i just lied on my bed looking at the celling
fell down and hurt...
at the same time i hope that she will sms me to comfort me
but she didnt... i waited and waited but it's the same
and finally i sms her to tell her that we had lost the match
i think she would have know it
hoping for some encouragement or perhaps just a bit love from her
but the msg she reply makes me more sad
maybe i just don't stand a chance to be with her

that night i was sad... down... and depressed...
feeling lonely and cold...
really cold...

soccer match eve...

there will be a soccer match tomolo at skul
involving my claz (my team) against 5 A Xiao
so i'm little nervous here.... haha
althought it's just a normal soccer competition but i really hope to win it and get into last 8
maybe it's becoz i have lose too many things this year
i lost the claz coir competition, basketball competition, drama competiton....
feel sad about losing so many competition so i wont let this one to be a failure again
i started playing soccer since primary standard 2 and i love soccer so much...
i'm gona do all my best tomolo..... throwing all i have into it

this is my last yeazr in chong hwa independant high skul
so i dun wana end it dully
at the same time... i hope...
she will wish me luck in the match
she says that she cant stay bac to watch me play the soccer match that day
quite disappointed at that time but then she gave me a big encouragement

today i saw her notebook...
there is a calender in it
she wrote down everyone's birthday in it
but not mine.... quite hurt....
but what can i do??
oni to work hard to attract her attention...

perhaps she dont love me as i do
but i will try to win the match in her claz number
No.9
i really hope that she will accept me
so i'm not going to give up on her easily
i'm gona try all the best to win her heart
though there are many ppl also trying to do so
i will not give up on her
WIN HER OVER!!!
That's my promise to myself...

A happy day perhaps...

wednesday was the day my class competing for the drama contest
so today (tuesday) we decided to stay back at school to practise our drama character
hmm... quite less ppl stay back for the practise
oni me, mei sien, man shean, sun hung, pei ni and wan ying attend the practise
most of the "actor" were too busy with their scheduels....
so they cant attend it
but in the end it was quite fun actually
we keep laughing from the start of the practise till the end
someone just can't stop laughing....
(pss... i din say it was shean... haha)

then shean say that she hav to be bac at 5pm
quite sad hearing that news coz she hav to go back edi
so when shean wana go home i just went to her and say
"i wana buy smtg so i accompany u out to skul bah"
she just smile and although i noe it's a stupid excuse
but i just cant think of other words to say
i duno how she feel about the excuse.. haha
we hav some conversation during the walk out to school
and i was quite happy coz i get to accompany her out.... haha...
i really hope that she wont feel bad or depressed with me
coz last time she feel uncomfortable with that... haiz...
i was not gud at speaking to ppl so when facing her
it makes me more difficult for me to say anythings
hmm... duno how she feel now
but in the end this was a happy day for me
maybe it ntg much for u all
but for me... it's a big step forward... haha
so gona slp loh
gud nite all^^